Motherhood in the Age of Fear I read Kim Brooks’ article, “Motherhood in the Age of Fear,” and I realized I have joined the ranks of mothers who have been condemned for being a mother. I am so grateful for her article. It gives me a small bit of comfort to know I am not… Continue reading Motherhood
Author: Carrianne
My relational rap sheet is extensive. I've been a wife, a mother, a stepmother, and a divorcee twice. I've learned more lessons that I wanted, participated in my fair share of bad decisions, am recovering from marrying fixer uppers and trying to still do good deeds when clearly no good deed goes unpunished.
I am now married to a man who needs no fixing and we support rather than enable. I began journaling in the hopes that my son would read these words one day and hear my side of the story. Feeling alone, I published my thoughts on this blog and I have met so many parents who are in similar situations. The realization of people’s cruetly is overwhelming.
Our children need us to love them, not use them as game pieces and collateral.
I Just Want to Run
Courtrooms have the muffled vacuum sound of a library. The rich hunter green fabrics accented on slick, shiny dark wood furniture cause an awareness of your inferiority. The moment you enter the austere space, you realize this is where the rest of your life will be determined. There is a man behind the door to… Continue reading I Just Want to Run
I Have No Confidence in This But Let’s Give it a Try
“I have no confidence in this but let’s give it a try.” Those are the words of the judge when he gave his ruling nine days ago. Every waking moment of my life since those words has been spent in speculation. Did my son’s father and stepmother know this judge? Was their sweaty, pudgy, red-faced,… Continue reading I Have No Confidence in This But Let’s Give it a Try
Removing the Masks: The Necessity of the Counter-Intuitive in Parental Alienation — Karen Woodall
“Alienating parents tend to present well; targeted parents tend to present poorly. As a rule, alienating parents present with the Four C’s. They are cool, calm, charming, and convincing. That is because effective alienators tend to be master manipulators … In contrast, targeted parents tend to present with the Four A’s. They are anxious, agitated,… Continue reading Removing the Masks: The Necessity of the Counter-Intuitive in Parental Alienation — Karen Woodall
The Thing I Want Most
Today I am angry. I know in my heart of hearts an atrocious crime was committed. I know because I realize I am not crazy. I am not a control freak and I am not the reason my son left me. My son’s sperm donor tells him I am a control freak, just a stupid… Continue reading The Thing I Want Most
Alternate Universes
I keep thinking I will wake up and I will be in an alternate universe. Maybe I will find some green and yellow rings and puddle jump with Polly and Digory into different worlds. Maybe I will find a machine that takes me to the other side of the rift in time and I will… Continue reading Alternate Universes
My Son Left Me
I hate July. It is hot. My hair is dry from chlorine. I am several pounds heavier than I was in May. I have to shave my legs every day. I hate July. I hate July 2018. This is the month my life changed forever. In many ways, this will be ok. Possibly better than… Continue reading My Son Left Me
No Good Deed Goes Unpunished 